Thursday, January 15, 2009

Thoughtful Thursday

Many among us make difficult decisions; sometimes daily, sometimes only once.

But how many of us must make a decision that will potentially forever effect the life we have known for all of our years on the planet? And not only our life, but the lives of those who love us dearly, of those whose lives have only ever known our love?

This past Tuesday, Lisa Kelly did just that.

After a series of critical setbacks, Lisa, who openly and bravely writes the blog Clusterfook, decided that she would finally stop her latest series of chemotherapy treatment. It was killing her faster than the ovarian cancer she has been dealing with.

The ovarian cancer she has faced down two times before.

Lisa has made a decision that I cannot begin to fathom. She has recognized that her time to leave this plane is drawing near, and she has weighed the options of continuing a course of medication that pummels her into submission versus gracefully readying for what is to come. She has said in the past "It is what it is"; she now has acknowledged that it is indeed so. It is her time.

Her time to leave her husband, who she refers to as Dude, and her two beautiful young daughters, Cam and Teenie.

I began reading Lisa's posts when she began her latest go-round. While I could gush at length of her many, many attributes, let me instead give up the highest of praise and gratitude for her willingness to take us on this leg of her journey, and her unwavering openness in exposing the sheer ugliness of this disease.

I urge everyone to walk back through Lisa's steps for an eye-opening experience of what really happens. This is vitality and struggle and pain at its most organic level; this is a woman's life - and a journey she chose to share with us.

It is research into this insidious cancer that we must raise money for. Let that damned pink machine run on it's own steam for awhile. It's time to feel the teal.

And heal the teal.

The comment section of Lisa' "Hospice" post is overflowing with soothing words and wishes for days free of pain and filled with love.

One commenter shared a Robert Frost poem which seems appropriate when honoring a woman whose bravery shines like a glowing aura around her, and spreads her precious warmth far and wide through her vast readership:

Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
so dawn does down to day
Nothing gold can stay.

"It is what it is"
~Lisa Kelly~


Mental P Mama said...

Wow. I am going to go there now. Wow.

Mental P Mama said...

Okay. I'm back. She is an incredibly brave woman, and I will be keeping her in my thoughts. Wow.

Not Afraid to Use It said...

Thank you for posting about this, BvB. Wow.

{i}Post said...

*chills* And I was complaining about my MORE!

Baroness von B said...

Countess MPM: Wow indeed. Invoke her name, and share her spirit.

Countess NATUI: I so wish that I didn't have to. It breaks my heart.

Countess iPost: These are apples and oranges, hon.

You have every right to complain about your arm, and you SHOULD - so it doesn't happen to someone else!

RiverPoet said...

Wow...I have just added her to my Reader and will catch up with her posts.

You know this is a subject close to my heart, and I feel for her and her family. So sorry....

Peace - D

Sandi said...

One of my all time favorite poems. It was featured in one of my favorite young adult novels, The Outsiders.

Thank you for sharing this.

imom said...

Thanks for sharing this. I spent some time reading her posts at Clusterfook and she's had such a great attitude throughout. My thoughts are with her.

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